congratulations to me.

I’ve been on a journey and it’s been difficult, I ate it (horse bucked me off) back around new years and it shook my confidence so badly.

Owning horses is completely different than “growing up riding”

and riding as an adult is completely different than riding as a kid, teen and even in your 20’s.

I’m learning so much, some things the hard way but that’s life I guess.

Today I thought I was going to trailer my 2 horses up to the trainer and ride around while my daughter had her lesson. Well, I trailered 2 horses up to the trainer. Unloaded and Bella was a dragon. Snorting. Tense. Pushing through me, walking in front of me. I was disappointed, very nervous, frustrated. Immediately decided I’m not riding. Walked her around a bit and then tried to crosstie her to tack her up, she was all over the place and I just decided – you know what… I already won. I loaded 2 horses up in a horse trailer and I drove it here myself! wtf! That’s crazy! I should be so proud of myself. I’ve only driven a trailer now like 3 times. So my mind reset. I started enforcing some ground manners and got Bella in check. Every time she tried to run me over or walk away I forced her to take a few steps backward. It took a bit but she finally got the hint and stood there. Quiet. So nice and quiet. She relaxed. I relaxed. I was back in control. I walked her over to the fence and let her eat grass while I watched Wave get her lesson. The trainer even said something to the effect of take the win, you showed up, your here. And she is right. She’s actually incredible and I’m obsessed with her but that’s a story for a different time.